It’s weird, but I feel like my move is kind of the start of a new chapter in the story of my life (lol I couldn’t think of a better way to phrase it). I actually haven’t started packing, as I kind of dread the idea of sifting through my things and figuring out whether it’s coming with me or staying behind.
The one decision that I made that will haunt me is the fact that I will be leaving my cat behind with family, until I have reached some form of stability in my new surroundings. I love my cat – she’s my baby. I know coming back for her after I’ve settled down is the responsible choice for me and for her, but it’s gutting to think I won’t see her for a couple of months at least. I also worry that she will be taken care of properly. I worry a lot. About everything. All the time.
On a lighter note, I also feel sad leaving some of my dolls behind. (Of course, they will be shipped to me at a later time.) I’ve decided to bring my three custom girls with me, I guess for the fact that they are more fragile than my stock girls, and they are also a bit more fun to photograph, since they have such different expressions from one another.
They’re also quite comforting to me… I think it’s because Finley was my first Blythe, who I’ve been through a lot of firsts with, and Marina and Prisma were gifts from very dear friends whom I connected with through the hobby (so they’re kind of like my good luck charms).
I will miss having Reese and Elowyn around for the time being… Which is why I’m bringing these two girls to the next Blythe meet I’m attending this weekend!
Ah… Life is nerve-wracking and time just kind of flies by. As it was, I kind of felt like most of the past few years of my life were spent in continuous black and white accompanied by white noise and the sound of my own anxiety. When I think about the alternative of spending any more years like this – stagnant, living within the same 10 mile radius I was born, spending most of my time at a job that seems like a waste of time, just kind of hoping that things would change or get better without me having to do anything, I realize I’m making the best choice for me by making changes in my life.
I hope to keep updating my blog regularly during my transition… But know that if I disappear for a bit, it will not be for long!