Busy mother of two

So my family has grown in the past week from one cat to two (I now officially qualify as a cat lady). 

Meet Nimby! Her name is kind of short for Nimbus, which was my alternative for Cloud or Cloudy. Also, it stands for Not In My Back Yard, after a character from the Xanth series.

She is so stinking sweet, but also really annoying to both me and my older kitty. I wasn’t planning on adding a kitten to my family, what with my situation not being entirely stable, but it was kind of kismet.

But with cats comes great responsibility. I’ve been at the vet office for 1.5 hours… Just sitting here… Waiting for both cats to be vetted. I’m pooped.

In other news, ^^ I recently sent a girl off to be customized (my newest girl Hi-Ho Marine). She’s kind of my Christmas gift to myself, or like a reward for getting my butt to the west coast. Other than that, I’ve been pretty inactive with my hobbies. I want to be more active but currently I have all of my yarn and dolls safely tucked away from curious kitten paws.

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I’m still mid-slump, and the fact that things keep changing doesn’t help either. I haven’t been doing any hobby things lately, as I’ve been too busy vegetating and watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer on Netflix (omg I didn’t realize how funny 90’s slang and fashion were haha. Did I really dress like that???). 

I’m still working temp jobs, but I think I finally found an apartment that I can call home for a year! This means: I get to set up my dolls. I will start crafting again! I will finally be able to go get my cat back on the east coast. 

Renting a room in someone else’s house was (is?) an experience. I’ve never subsisted on frozen dinner and cup ramen before, and also, I now appreciate just how clean my parents’ home is, and how much work it is to keep a house that clean. My dollies are all in a box right now, including my newest girl, who I’m waiting to send over to Australia for a makeover once I save up enough (teh monies… It slips through my fingers). Money has been stressing me out, moreso than it used to – I’ve never had to live paycheck-to-paycheck before – it’s mentally exhausting, and super triggering to my anxiety.

And now, I have to think about furnishing my new place! This is both exciting and stressful since furniture is SO EXPENSIVE. I’ve picked out a color palette though!


Mint, gold, grey, and white! I found those photos via Google a la Pinterest ^^. My new place is going to be super tiny, but having a space that’s all mine will do me good, I think. 

Anyway, sorry in advance if I go quiet >_<. 

Slowly packing up my life

It’s weird, but I feel like my move is kind of the start of a new chapter in the story of my life (lol I couldn’t think of a better way to phrase it). I actually haven’t started packing, as I kind of dread the idea of sifting through my things and figuring out whether it’s coming with me or staying behind. 

The one decision that I made that will haunt me is the fact that I will be leaving my cat behind with family, until I have reached some form of stability in my new surroundings. I love my cat – she’s my baby. I know coming back for her after I’ve settled down is the responsible choice for me and for her, but it’s gutting to think I won’t see her for a couple of months at least. I also worry that she will be taken care of properly. I worry a lot. About everything. All the time. 

On a lighter note, I also feel sad leaving some of my dolls behind. (Of course, they will be shipped to me at a later time.) I’ve decided to bring my three custom girls with me, I guess for the fact that they are more fragile than my stock girls, and they are also a bit more fun to photograph, since they have such different expressions from one another. 

They’re also quite comforting to me… I think it’s because Finley was my first Blythe, who I’ve been through a lot of firsts with, and Marina and Prisma were gifts from very dear friends whom I connected with through the hobby (so they’re kind of like my good luck charms). 

I will miss having Reese and Elowyn around for the time being… Which is why I’m bringing these two girls to the next Blythe meet I’m attending this weekend!


I won’t be keeping her in this outfit for the meet, but I thought Reese looked quite cute in her blue and orange ensemble, and I wanted to share ^^.

Ah… Life is nerve-wracking and time just kind of flies by. As it was, I kind of felt like most of the past few years of my life were spent in continuous black and white accompanied by white noise and the sound of my own anxiety. When I think about the alternative of spending any more years like this – stagnant, living within the same 10 mile radius I was born, spending most of my time at a job that seems like a waste of time, just kind of hoping that things would change or get better without me having to do anything, I realize I’m making the best choice for me by making changes in my life. 

I hope to keep updating my blog regularly during my transition… But know that if I disappear for a bit, it will not be for long! 

Weekend rituals and life in general

Every weekend, I try to redress my dolls, that way I can figure out what items in the doll wardrobe I love, get a better sense of what things go together, and it’s quite relaxing to redress them while sipping a glass of wine and watching some YouTube videos. 

Prisma (left) and Finley (right) are this week’s best dressed girls ^^. Prisma is wearing a checkered shirt and tutu by MINIJIJO with a pink hair clip. Finley is wearing an adorable shirt made by my friend, a Missblythe2012 jumper skirt and Qmagicdoll shoes. I love how different these two girls look! They were both customized by different artists, and so their faces are quite different styles. I’m so in love with Prisma, but somewhere down the line, I may give her a licca body (her neck wobbles on her current body, so I’m not sure that I would want to do an arm transplant).

I’m slowly decluttering my things in order to move with less. I do foresee myself having to leave some Blythes and coming back for them later or having them mailed to me, but it’s so hard for me to choose who to bring.

Now that the move date is less than a month, my anxiety has kicked up to over level 9000. The less time between me and my move, the less I feel prepared, and the more real the changes feel. I’m scared… Because change is terrifying. But I see it as having to choose between staying in my current city and living with depression, or relocating and dealing with anxiety. Staying feels like giving up (just because sameness is easier), and I don’t want to give up. I want to someday be happy, and I don’t think that where I’m living right now will lead me there. 


Lol. Check out my Fitbit. This is my heart rate as I sit in my chair, panicking (for reference, my resting heart rate is 63 bpm). 

The one thing that’s changed for me though, is that I’m also feeling bouts of excitement mixed in with the periodic worry. I think I know that in the future, I will be glad that I’ve taken a risk in my life, after playing it safe for so long.

I hope everyone had a great weekend! 

Things I’m currently about

Hobonichi-ing 

I’ve taken to sitting at Starbucks and killing time during lunch. My favorite thing to do is watch YouTube videos (thank you for the free Wi-Fi Starbucks), and decorating my Hobonichi with washi tape. It’s pretty soothing, and definitely stress relieving. Decorating with washi is a way for my brain to take a break from how angry my work makes me. /Angst

This Hi-Tec C Coleto Pen 

muji on the left, coleto on the right

  It’s replaced my very old multicolor pen from Muji. Jann of Project Dollhouse loves the pilot Hi-Tec C, and I knew I had to try it. I liked that I could pick the ink cartridge colors and size, and the pen case. I ordered the pink coleto with Black, Purple, Cherry Pink, Apple Green, and Aqua Blue ink, all in 0.3 mm. I’m a huge fan of the black, purple, and cherry pink. I probably could have done without the green and the blue. The Cherry Pink shade actually reminds me of a pen I had when I was either in elementary school or junior high school – it’s the same shade of this scented pen I had. Literally, when I look at my writing using the Cherry Pink ink, I can remember the odd artificial cherry/strawberry scented ink of my youth. 

Stardew Valley

I’m not sure exactly how many hours I’ve logged on this PC game, but I’m near the end of my first winter. If you love Harvest Moon and Rune Factory, you will LOVE this game. It’s kind of a Harvest Moon, Rune Factory, and dare I say an Animal Crossing hybrid. The graphics remind me of old PC games (think mid-90s) or Super Nintendo games. It doesn’t bother me much, because this sort of retro graphics has its own charm and it’s nostalgic. The game itself is immersive and full of surprises. Without spoiling too much, here are some pros and cons to the game so far:
Pros

  • The accessible areas are huge. Way bigger than any harvest moon game maps.
  • There is a ton of content and areas to unlock.
  • There are a ton of cut scenes, not just limited to with the bachelors or bachelorettes. The characters each have depth and backstories. They have realistic problems, and to befriend them is to learn more about them.
  • You’re limited to two gifts a week per person. (Huge plus). I hate having to make daily rounds to distribute gifts to all the townsfolk.
  • Regardless of your gender, it looks like you can court any of the bachelors or bachelorettes.
  • There are tons of quests and events
  • It almost feels like an open-world game.

Cons

  • Because the game is still fairly new, I’ve encountered some glitches. But I believe the game has continued to release updates to fix this.
  • Fishing is the Worst. The absolute Worst.

Only two more days till the weekend!

Brown Paper Packages Tied Up with String

Recently, I received a Brown Paper Package tied up with string, filled with a few of my favorite things. This is the second time Jannette from Project Dollhouse (blog / Instagram) and I have sent each other care packages, and when I received the parcel, I totally had an “I SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE” moment. The way the package was wrapped was so old-timey, so wabi-sabi, so CUTE! ^^ The inside totally matched the outside, and I was bowled over by how both useful and awesome XD everything was! I’m actually most excited about this pink calligraphy pen. I plan on adding on my list of things to do “Learn Calligraphy” and will be referring to Professors Youtube and Google.

I’ve been really enjoying my Hobonichi Techo so far, but as of late, it’s served as a painful reminder that time is moving really fast, and I don’t feel prepared for life. I’ve been feeling like I’ve been caught in a rut ever since I got back from my vacation in February. There are more words in it than doodles, stickers, or other decorations, but with all these shiny new things, I kind of feel a second wind ^^. WASHI ON ALL THE THINGS!  

Jannette included a couple of thoughtful letters, that make me nostalgic for snail mail, and hand written calligraphy cards that remind me to stay (in the proximity of) Awesome XD (giving myself some leeway because I definitely have days I don’t feel so awesome). I always feel very happy and touched by how thoughtful the contents of Jannette’s packages are. This brown paper package tied up with string (and sealed! Actually sealed with I’m assuming some wax and a stamp) really brightened up my day. :3

Stay awesome everyone ^^.

Rainy day, Retail therapy, Cats

Last Friday, I had one of those terrible days where it was just one thing after another. On the bright side, it was a Friday, and I got Saturday and Sunday to find my center and reevaluate my mindset. (To be honest, I’m still dreading going back to work tomorrow.)

Today, I had the special treat of hanging out with one of my best friends who flew in from out of state ^^. We exchanged belated Christmas gifts – I gave her a hobonichi techo planner and she got me a ton of adorable stationary! I redid my On-the-go journaling pouch to include some of my new items:  Look at all the cat things! I’m super happy about the Jetoy Choo Choo sticker book I got (soooo cuuuutteee :3).

We also went to a new Cat cafe that opened in my city:   The cats were pretty sleepy the hour we were there, and surprisingly very tolerant to being petted by strangers. The hour of sitting around and petting drowsy cats actually went by pretty fast.

Now, let me introduce two possibly new addictions:   This is a Sonny Angel figure! He comes in blind boxes, and I decided to get one from a toy store I went to today. I was hoping for one of the deers or the sheep, but I ended up getting an Uribou (I’m not sure what that is..).   He’s so petite and cute!… And very naked and it’s kind of funny. I might buy another just to see if this is going to become a thing. My second new addiction is journaling! There’s something kind of relaxing/therapeutic to doodling, journaling, and scheduling. I do feel a kind of pressure to keep the planner looking neat. I’m hoping by the end of 2016, I will have a planner that tells a bit of a story as to how my year went.

Wish me luck tomorrow! I hope I get through next week without any incidents.