Venturing out

Strangely enough, it’s been pretty rainy in Southern California this past week. I wasn’t feeling particularly inspired this week to take photographs in my apartment, so I grabbed two girls and googled directions to the nearest park. 

It’s amazing what a difference in scenery makes. I took out Mikan and Remington for photos since I can just toss them into a bag and go (toss… meaning gently wrap and carefully place in a tote). 

At this particular park, I actually got chased by a squirrel. And by chased, I don’t mean “oh it looks like that squirrel is maybe walking toward me or looking at me funny,” this squirrel literally danced around me and scampered after me thinking I might have food. Said squirrel:

Sometimes I feel like I need to push myself to do doll related things, just because I have a lot of dolls (in my opinion, lol for me I have a lot of dolls), and I’m expecting two more dolls in the near future (a repainted Licca and a customized Blythe). 

I know it’s okay to have things just to look at and appreciate, but the hobby for me has been an active one – dressing dolls, crafting for dolls, photographing them, and going to meets. It’s hard to get out of that mindset that I should be DOING something with my dolls. 

I need to learn how to chill.

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A peek at the doll shelf

^^ I got my orders of doll clothes (two sleep forever dresses and one second hand ronmiel set). I have to say, getting in dolly time is SUPER hard when the kitten wants to be a part of everything I do. I only managed to get the girls on my shelf redressed (will tackle the girls in the glass house tomorrow hopefully). 

From left to right:

  • Marina is wearing a minijijo dress, a knitted cardigan, and rement Mary Janes.
  • Mikan is wearing one of my new Sleep forever dresses and shoes from Kuloft.
  • Remy is wearing the Ronmiel long sleeve shirt, a pinafore from missblythe2012, and loafers from a Daiso Elly chan set.
  • Reese is wearing a plasticfashion dress and rement Mary Janes.

What you see here is the shelf that my two cats can’t reach (YET). I have the IKEA huset set displayed, as well as a chair I picked up from Daiso. I plan on painting the table with some chalk paint, wallpapering the back of the shelf, and crocheting a cuter rug… some day XD.

I feel so behind in my crafting/hobbies. It’s hard to get anything done with the kitten bouncing around (she’s so stinking cute and sweet from time to time that it’s hard for me to stay annoyed with her).

🙂 I hope to fit more dolly time in this long weekend.

Mail roll call:

  • Cu-poche figure from Hot Topic
  • A repainted obitsu head from eBay
  • 2 Licca chan dolls from Mandarake

… not… terrible… right? … I need to control my spending but something about the year ending is making me stress shop.

Trekking along

A month in, and I still feel a bit displaced. I’m considering starting a new blog, kind of hiding it away in the interwebs amongst the thousands of other blogs where people vent and brood… Only because even I’m starting to bum myself out!

My hobbies have been something of a lifesaver as of late. I’ve been kind of in a crafting overdrive- mostly because I feel like I need to keep busy so I don’t feel so alone. I miss my cat and my family D: . 

I redressed Remy. She’s wearing a plastic fashion dress, and shoes, socks, headband, and necklace from a Daiso Ely chan fashion pack (so worth the $1.50 and tax). These shoes fit Remy really well, so I’m definitely going to pick up some more. 

I also picked up a coloring book, color pencils, and cotton yarn (crocheted into a blanket). I really shouldn’t be spending money, but I tend to fall victim to retail therapy. I actually kind of fell of the wagon, and made a big purchase (nooOoooOo). … Yup. I have a new girl. 

XD I’m actually having Marina and Finley shipped to me next week. I’m hoping my room will be more homey, and less lonely with my Blythes hanging out. I also decided to adopt a second hand Blythe from a Facebook group. I have big plans for this girl! And she’s to be my gift to myself – for hanging in there, for doing the best I can, and her sunny hair makes me happy. 

Not my photo (from blythedoll.com).

I saw her on a doll adoption group, and I have been keeping an eye out for a stock girl to send away for customization in the future. I even have an idea for a name and character for her! ^^

Hopefully, I’ll start posting more often. 

Anyway, stay positive and happy Monday!

Beating that slump

So, it’s nearing a month since the big move. I’m feeling… melancholy… Maybe even ambivalent. Sometimes I think I’m afraid to let myself be happy, and so I focus on the negative. Like, I know I should be happy that I’m in California, but it doesn’t feel permanent. I think it’s because my job and living situation are both short term. I don’t feel established. I feel like at any moment, I can get swept away. 

It’s weird.

I’ve been trying to knit again, and I managed to knit up a dress out of this lace weight mohair yarn I’ve been holding onto for a while. I like how floaty the material is.

I purchased a couple of patterns on Ravelry, and I’m excited to start making clothes for my two girls again. 

I’ve also started watching Orange is the New Black (I’m late to the boat). I’m kind of hooked, and I’m currently on season 2.

I need to practice being positive. 

Me time

I finally got a bit of “Me” time in the past two days. I’ve been in California for 13 days (/mind blown), and I spent the first week and a half stressing out about basic life stuff like:

  • Finding a job
  • Finding a place to live – half check
  • Getting a car – check

I can safely say that I’ve done 1.5 of the above. So, I spent today and yesterday in a zoned-out stupor, trying to relax. Trying, and only semi-succeeding.

I did manage to do two hobby related things! I FINALLY finished my WiP – the Simple Things shawl. Check it:

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I have to block it, but I’m so pleased with how it came out!! I love how speckled the hand-dyed yarn is. I really can’t wait until it gets cooler for me to start wearing this. I wouldn’t say that this project flew off my needles, as I think it took me about a month (I’m so slow at knitting).

I think my next project will be a pair of socks… Or maybe a dolly thing. Doll things knit up way faster, and I’m kind of over time-consuming projects for now.

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I also finally redressed Prisma. She is my one girl that looks really good in black and white. For good measure, I also put these large black frames on her (to match all those bespectacled cats).

When I’m settled into my new digs, I’ll be sure to post an update :D.

Displaced in Paradise

Just a rambly (quite possibly long) update. It’s been a whole week since I moved westward, and I’m not sure the reality of the changes has hit me yet. My brain tends to put a negative spin on everything (a bad habit I’m trying to correct), and try as I might, I can’t shake off these thoughts:

  1. I’m technically homeless.
  2. I’m unemployed.
  3. The money… It slips through my fingers (insert Mulan reference here).
  4. I miss my cat.
  5. I’m no longer in NYC.

I’m a New Yorker in California… Which, I guess isn’t all that rare – people relocate all the time. I think I still might be on New York time, as I woke up at 7AM naturally. I went for a walk, and it feels kind of like a waking dream. There’s hummingbirds and bunnies just going about their business in the neighborhood. 

It really does feel surreal. Everything feels different – even my sweat feels different (it was explained to me that this is because there’s no humidity here. Bizarre).

I’m really glad I decided to see my old therapist before leaving everything I knew. She really helped me keep grounded before the move, and I try to remember her words and practice her advice every day I’m here. Here’s my list of positives:

  1. It’s so beautiful here. It’s so serene.
  2. I feel less like I’m being smothered by a sea of angry people.
  3. I have a support system here.
  4. I have a support system in NYC too.


I haven’t been able to do many doll things while here. I think it’s because if I’m not trying to get my life in order, I’m napping because I’m exhausted. Once I get settled (hopefully soon), I’ll be able to take my girls out for some photos.

Ch-ch-changes

I’m currently in mild procrastination mode, starting my new life on the other side of the country. It’s weird being in California, since I’ve lived in NYC my whole life. It still hasn’t hit me yet that this is my new home. Everything is so foreign – the layout of the streets, the lack of the hustle and bustle, the weather…

I tried to bring as much of my home with me, but only managed to bring two dolls – Prisma and Remi. 😦 Marina and Finley couldn’t make the trip this time around, but once I’m settled (and no longer technically homeless), I will most likely have them shipped to me. 

I think another comforting thing about my dolls and this hobby is that I can always depend on my girls to never change. They’re sort of a constant in my every day life. I started to feel a big overwhelmed yesterday night, so I decided to just redress Remington for fun.


Remington is wearing a sweater I knitted, a minijijo tutu, and her stock shoes (which, fun fact, have magnets on the bottom!). 

I intend to redress Prisma tonight… And maybe hopefully take these two girls out for some photos. 

Back to work 😦 .